oh, sing it to me!

I was planning to do this post for a looong time, but i wasn't in a right mood, i guess. So this one will be about some huge part of my life. That part which is really important and i can't imagine my life without it.

I already told you in some of previous posts how much I love music. And there are tickets from concerts I attended to. Every single concert was AWESOME. I mean it, guys! Live performances are the greatest! I love seeing my favourite bands on a stage. They are so passionate about what they're doing. Vocalists always put their hearts into the songs when they sing for their audience and the rest of band's members do their best to play on the instruments. I always get crazy at the concerts! When I'm in a screaming and singing crowd I feel so ALIVE. You know what I like most about live playing? That I actually can feel the music flowing through my body and pulsating in my veins. It really gets into my heart.

Ok, first concert I was at was Tokio Hotel's performance. It was also my first meeting with my ex-friend, who lived in a different city than I. Most of the time we were laughing at Bill's appearance and Tom's face expressions. They were so adorable, funny and cute. I really loved TH those days, but now I barely listen to them.

Then was the Rise Against. They were playing in a students' club called Barn. I was there with my ex-boyfriend. (ex again -,-") We were having great fun. It was he's first concerts so I was glad to be there with him. We totally enjoyed our time.

Next was Black veil brides. They play screamo/rock music. Their appearance rocks! And before BVB, there was a support band playing. They are called Yashin. The best support I've ever seen and heard! After concert I had a pleasure to talk with one of Yashin's vocalist. He was totally cute and in my style.

The fourth concert was big music event in Poland. Four bands were playing there, but I really wanted to see only one band. It was Linkin Park. I bought tickets for me and my ex-bf, because LP was his favourite band. They were great!

And the last one - Rise Against again. The concert was taking place on the outside. Live music, fresh air - beautiful combination.

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um, yeah guys. so it's me again. i'm back. again. but i'm not sure how long it will last this time. but enjoy your time.

hot monkey, hot ass, cold beer, no class

You know that movie "Unmade beds"? I watched it lately. the story was saaad. Oh, poor Alex who's looking for his father and poor Vera who's looking for real feelings and someone matched to her, i guess. Beyond the story, there was also a good music in background. Two songs are stuck in my head. One of them is THAT meaningless that it just makes a new sense to me. xD (Hot monkey!) You know that feeling? And the second one is very similiar to my first meating with one boy. (Hello)

And another thing i loved in "Unmade beds" was that every single person there was BEAUTIFUL. ah, i recommend it to every dreamer and every romantic soul.

And now some photos. (It was supposed to be a post only with photos, but i titled it in that way and just MUST write a little about movie, sooorryyy!)

 
~ bye bye

Peter Pan in my heart

Some days I feel I'd rather be a little girl than a grown up teenager who's going to study at the university soon. Life used be easier and more beautiful back then, and the whole world was a better place, without any violence, sadness, ugliness and so on. So, on the days like that, I just back to those times by playing on playgrounds I used to go at age of 5 or 6. And it is still the same fun as then! Especially with good friends. Check out me and Pigeon having fun, hihi!

pretty little goodies

Hi guys! I'd like to show you some things i own.

I received this small notebook from Pigeon. She bought it for me at her journey to Belgium. The cover is lovely, at least in my opinion. At first i was so scared to write anything in it, because i was worried that I would ruin it with my awful handwriting. And I also didn't know what to write there. But finally I decided to put my own thoughts and favourite fragments of lyrics in it. Take a look:

This thing i also received from Pigeon. It is the most adorable package for tissues I've ever seen. I won't use any hankie because they are too lovely!

Two notebooks I bought for myself. No need to explain, just look at the inscriptions. ;p

And postcards with photos of Freddie Mercury and Bob Marley, Warhol's style. This with Marley is from my grandma and the other one I bought on my own.

I enjoy surrounding myself with stuffs like these above. I'm sure that my future house will be full of such thingies.

~ Yaaaay!

We can be heroes, just for one day

oh god, i'm terribly exhausted! I spent the night at Pigeon's place. Again! I was sleeping there for the third time since i'm back to Warsaw. I almost feel like i'm living there, which will be awesome. Really, that girl is one of the bunch of people who i can spend my whole time with and i never get bored. You know, i call this REAL friendship 'cause i can lay on her bed/floor or sit at pouf and look through everything in her room, for example, books, cd-s, games, drawings, clothes (i do love her wardrobe and its content!) and in that time she can do her things. We are comfortable with each other, which is the most important thing between two people in every kind of relation. "That's when you know you've found somebody special. When you can just shut the !@#$%^&* up for a minute and comfortably enjoy the silence.", like Mia from Pulp fiction said. And Pigeon is one of those people whom i can just say "hey, i'm hungry, feed me!" and she won't get offended. She just prepare me a tasty meal. You know, it is really important for me 'cause i love eating, hehe!

~ DELICIOUS

ha, i was supposed to post my outfits today, but finally i've decided that they'll appear later. ;>

keep warm, people!

young&beautiful

hello guys! i'm back from 2-weeks lasting trip. i was at the seaside, in my favourite country town. it is really quiet and peaceful, you know, just perfect place for someone like me. um, am i better after that break? not really no, but i'm still working on it. i try going out as much as i can. i barely spend time at home lately, which is a good way to cure depression, i think. i just can focus on many other things and "go outside my head". i also exercise a lot, like bike riding, outside gym etc. i needed to do something for my health and body finally!

ok, lets leave the general things. i wanna write about my latest obssesion. i got addicted to Lana del Rey's songs. ;____; at the begging of her career, i thought that she's ugly and not that talented. but i fell in love with few of her songs. that explains the title of this post, which is Lana's song title. the lyrics may be not "deep" but i can relate to some of them. and Lana has really calm, interesting and beauty voice. i listen to her when i wanna calm down or when i'm really sad.

just look at her!

and favourite songs

Young and beautiful
Summertime sadness
Blue jeans
Video games
Radio

the day has come where i have died

i'm not good. not at all. every day is a constant battle between feelings in my heart and thoughts in my head. i'm getting really tired. the worst thing about it is that i really don't remember how i felt before. for a couple of days i'm feeling suicidal. i just want to die to end this pain in my mind.

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